Our Fertility Journey: Forever in My Heart-Waiting for the Day I Can Hold You in My Arms

I can't thank everyone enough for their continued prayers, positive thoughts, and words of encouragement.  After my last post, life went back to normal and I regained my strength again. I think the hardest part was waiting two weeks to heal properly which meant my running went out the window and I didn't feel like my energetic self.  Luckily it went by fast and I was quick to recover.  My post op appointment was Monday, September 19th and as I began that sunny drive to Mason, I turned the radio off to say a prayer and was then on my way.  I am so glad I did. The doctor met me in this mini-conference room where she gave me an update of how the surgery went and showed me those lovely pictures you all got to see on my last post.  She was happy with the surgery and her confidence made me feel good about it.  She also told me the polyps were benign (I kind of forgot they even checked to see if they were Cancerous which is a totally normal precaution), so that ...

I must forewarn you before reading further that this post will get quite technical so if you have a weak stomach or prefer to avoid anything related to the female reproductive system, please stop reading and go about your day.  Today's post is to give a run down of our recent events with discovering I had a septum in my uterus, which likely caused our miscarriage in December, and the surgery that removed it.   Pre-Surgery: As my previous posts indicated, Dr. Shavell, from the Fertility Center in Grand Rapids, looked at my results from my records from my OBGYN that showed I had a Bicornuate Uterus, which basically means it looks like an upside down heart.  The typical uterus looks like a heart without the actual heart shape indenting.  This is pretty normal and can lead to successful pregnancies.  However, Dr. Shavell wanted to look further into it and found it wasn't a heart at all, but a septum dividing my uterus into two parts.  This septum is likely...

If God blesses us with a Rainbow baby, we will for sure be doing the powerful image in the article below. Rainbow Baby Photo Shoot

Huffington Post Article on Sharing the Journey and the Rainbow Babies

I didn't expect to have an update this soon, but what I need to realize is I need to stop having any expectations.  I have no clue which obstacles will continue, how high or low the hills will be, and there is not a single thing I can do about it.  The reason I say this is because I didn't think my appointment on Monday to have the ultrasound would be a big deal.  My husband, Tim, insisted my mom come with me since he had to work and I asked her even though I saw no point.  This wasn't supposed to be a big appointment and I already knew what the situation was.  I knew I had a heart-shaped uterus so what else was there to worry about?  Wrong again. As I'm sitting on the table with the nurse examining my lady business, I asked her what she saw.  Of course she played it safe and told me my doctor would go over everything with me.  She was nice about it, but it still annoyed me.  Just tell me already, no your not a doctor but you also know wh...

I've waited a bit to update because frankly, I needed a break.  For those of you who truly know me, know that I can obsess and let my eagerness to control everything about my life get the best of me.  So after my last appointment, I went on vacation with my husband and tried to find my "zen."  I'm not saying I am a Yoga enthusiast with Indian tattoos everywhere,  who thinks everything is a spiritual experience......although I did try Yoga for the first time today and wow I suck......but back to my point.  I had my last appointment with my OBGYN July 30th and left feeling discouraged.  On a previous post, I mentioned how I felt reassured after having the HSG done because the OBGYN on call said I did have a heart-shaoed uterus, but that some women do and that's okay.  She also said my doctor would probably put me back on Chlomid since that got us pregnant in December.  So I went into my appointment with expectations and if I could teach any of you o...

Many of us have heard the common phrase, "There should be an app for that."  Well my friends, there is an abundance of fertility apps and if you are anything like me, you want to make sure you are using the best one.  I was using Period Diary, which did a good job of having me track my periods, estimate when I was fertile and ovulating, as well as track how I was feeling.  It wasn't until a co-worker, friend, and fellow TTC (trying to conceive) buddy helped me find one even better.  So if you are TTC, you need to download the Ovia Fertility app. This app not only tracks your period, fertility window, and ovulation, but does much, much more.  For starters, it gives you a fertility score which lets you know just how fertile you are depending on how far along in your cycle you are.  For those with complex cycles that may run less or greater than 28 days, it adjusts to your cycle so you can better plan.  It also has over hundreds of questions to help you...