Our Fertility Journey: Forever in My Heart-Waiting for the Day I Can Hold You in My Arms

I didn't expect to have an update this soon, but what I need to realize is I need to stop having any expectations.  I have no clue which obstacles will continue, how high or low the hills will be, and there is not a single thing I can do about it.  The reason I say this is because I didn't think my appointment on Monday to have the ultrasound would be a big deal.  My husband, Tim, insisted my mom come with me since he had to work and I asked her even though I saw no point.  This wasn't supposed to be a big appointment and I already knew what the situation was.  I knew I had a heart-shaped uterus so what else was there to worry about?  Wrong again. As I'm sitting on the table with the nurse examining my lady business, I asked her what she saw.  Of course she played it safe and told me my doctor would go over everything with me.  She was nice about it, but it still annoyed me.  Just tell me already, no your not a doctor but you also know what you are looking at.  Luck

I've waited a bit to update because frankly, I needed a break.  For those of you who truly know me, know that I can obsess and let my eagerness to control everything about my life get the best of me.  So after my last appointment, I went on vacation with my husband and tried to find my "zen."  I'm not saying I am a Yoga enthusiast with Indian tattoos everywhere,  who thinks everything is a spiritual experience......although I did try Yoga for the first time today and wow I suck......but back to my point.  I had my last appointment with my OBGYN July 30th and left feeling discouraged.  On a previous post, I mentioned how I felt reassured after having the HSG done because the OBGYN on call said I did have a heart-shaoed uterus, but that some women do and that's okay.  She also said my doctor would probably put me back on Chlomid since that got us pregnant in December.  So I went into my appointment with expectations and if I could teach any of you one thing it would