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Our Sweet Josephine

I must preface this by stating I am not claiming to be psychic.  I did, however, have a vision or picture if you will of our little girl.  No, I am not pregnant that I know of, but I could see her.  She had dark brown hair with big brown eyes.  The way her eyes and mouth looked when she smiled was this incredible combination of Tim and I.  Who knows.  Maybe we will have a boy, maybe a girl, maybe both, maybe niether, but I had to document my vision and this little angel that gave me this undeniable yearning to hold her with my unyielding, unconditonal love. So to our sweet Josephine, if we ever have the blessed opportunity to meet, I promise to love you and take care of you for always.

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