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New Beginnings

After ten amazing years with the love of my life, at 30 and 32, we finally said our vows and made that lifelong comittment that already existed.  Our wedding day was everything we had hoped for and more.  The love between us as well as our loved ones was evident throughoiut the day and I will always cherish the memories made.  Our honeymoon continued our blissful state.  We drove to Holland, MI and then to Chicago and explored our favorite windy city.  Our life since then has been such a blessing.  After being together for ten years, I didn't know if being married would change anything.  I always knew I would love him forever and that this was it.  So to me, why would anything change after we sign a piece of paper?  It still amazes me how wrong I was.  Tim as a boyfriend and then fiance was always so sweet, affectionate, compelling, intelligent, and he challenged me to be a better person.  Tim as my husband is still all of those things and more.  It is difficult to put into words, but we have this whole new outlook of always taking care of one another.  We are a unite, a family, and we strive to be the best version of ourselves for the other person.  Don't get me wrong, we've been married 3 weeks and I know how this goes.  There will be days we wake up and want to strangle eachother, but we will also never stop fighting for the love we have.  To add to that, even with the hard times ahead, we don't want to live hard nor good times with anyone else.  

In addition to our nuptuals, we move into our newly built house in exactly two weeks!  After living in Novi, Michgan for one year, I have learned two things about myself: 1. I don't like living in areas where I feel like you have to keep up with the Kardashians; 2. I need to live closer to family.  Not necesarrily in the same city, but I love how close we are and an hour just isn't close enough.  So we decided Fowlerville was our best option.  Our house sits in a neighborhood surrounded by beeautiful green grass and contains newly built houses with a suburban character..  Our green house with black accents is just waiting to be lived in and we cannot wait.  

The final new beginning for now is our desire to grow a family.  Which is what my posts will be regarding for a while....or until we get pregnant.  Fertility is not something every couple has luck with.  For some, it's as easy as breathing, for others it is a three year struggle.  I am not sure what ours will entail but for me to process it and grow from it, I need to write about it.  My hope is that I can provide some comfort to others who struggle and hopefully together we can get through that dream that many women have........to have a baby.

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