Our Fertility Journey: Forever in My Heart-Waiting for the Day I Can Hold You in My Arms

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I didn't expect to have an update this soon, but what I need to realize is I need to stop having any expectations.  I have no clue which obstacles will continue, how high or low the hills will be, and there is not a single thing I can do about it.  The reason I say this is because I didn't think my appointment on Monday to have the ultrasound would be a big deal.  My husband, Tim, insisted my mom come with me since he had to work and I asked her even though I saw no point.  This wasn't supposed to be a big appointment and I already knew what the situation was.  I knew I had a heart-shaped uterus so what else was there to worry about?  Wrong again. As I'm sitting on the table with the nurse examining my lady business, I asked her what she saw.  Of course she played it safe and told me my doctor would go over everything with me.  She was nice about it, but it still annoyed me.  Just tell me already, no your not a doctor but you also know wh...

I've waited a bit to update because frankly, I needed a break.  For those of you who truly know me, know that I can obsess and let my eagerness to control everything about my life get the best of me.  So after my last appointment, I went on vacation with my husband and tried to find my "zen."  I'm not saying I am a Yoga enthusiast with Indian tattoos everywhere,  who thinks everything is a spiritual experience......although I did try Yoga for the first time today and wow I suck......but back to my point.  I had my last appointment with my OBGYN July 30th and left feeling discouraged.  On a previous post, I mentioned how I felt reassured after having the HSG done because the OBGYN on call said I did have a heart-shaoed uterus, but that some women do and that's okay.  She also said my doctor would probably put me back on Chlomid since that got us pregnant in December.  So I went into my appointment with expectations and if I could teach any of you o...

Many of us have heard the common phrase, "There should be an app for that."  Well my friends, there is an abundance of fertility apps and if you are anything like me, you want to make sure you are using the best one.  I was using Period Diary, which did a good job of having me track my periods, estimate when I was fertile and ovulating, as well as track how I was feeling.  It wasn't until a co-worker, friend, and fellow TTC (trying to conceive) buddy helped me find one even better.  So if you are TTC, you need to download the Ovia Fertility app. This app not only tracks your period, fertility window, and ovulation, but does much, much more.  For starters, it gives you a fertility score which lets you know just how fertile you are depending on how far along in your cycle you are.  For those with complex cycles that may run less or greater than 28 days, it adjusts to your cycle so you can better plan.  It also has over hundreds of questions to help you...

I thought it fitting to have my first real fertility appointment with my new doctor during the week of my birthday.  It made sense with beginning a new year of life and I feel good about my doctor.  She was able to reassure me that it's okay and we can still get pregnant.  I think it's important to hear any positivity in these situations and any doctor who can provide that no matter the circumstance is a hero in my book. She not only reassured me with the fact that we did get pregnant, but also that she had her son at the age of 35, so this whole clock dwindling concept is silly.  I left that appointment with directions to get an HSG done which basically determines if your fallopian tubes flow properly and addresses my "upside down-heart-shaped uterus."  There is a much fancier term for it (bicornuate uterus), but I prefer my catchy phrase. The test was today and for those of you who have not experienced it, they tell you it feels like your worst period cram...

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