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Happy Mother's Day

My boss asked me the most random question yesterday.  She asked if I had any pets. I laughed and said no, then my co worker raved about her cat.  It was an interesting conversation to say the least.  It wasn't until a few minutes later when our other supervisor was handing out flowers to all of the mothers that I realized why she asked.  Even though I don't have a pet, I still got a flower.  It was so nice to be included. Fast forward to 5pm and I was balling on my car.  Why, you ask?  This was going to be my first Mother's Day and my heart was broken just thinking about it.

It never occurred to me that this day would affect me so.  I feel terrible for not thinking of those who have lost their little ones on Mother's Day before.  So yes, Mother's Day will be more difficult this year, but I had a revelation this morning.  I'm still a mother.  Our baby was alive while inside of me and when he/she passed, he/she went to Heaven and is simply alive but in a new form.  So from now on, Mother's Day will be a celebration because I will always love and cherish my little angel.

To all of you mothers out there.  Whether your child is here or in another place, they are loved and so are you.  

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